Irritation is not a mental state. The effect is a mental state but the initial feeling of irritation is a sensation in the body that asks your attention. It’s like a wave of pressure that comes from the lower part to the higher part. When it reaches the mind, which means the energy wave comes above the shoulders so to speak, it creates “irritated thoughts”. But initially it’s just a sensation which you resist and becomes a negative state of mind. 

When this energy builds up you get resentful and restless. You believe in the object your irritation energy targets and you lose yourself in that object.

When the wave of energy, that you normally call irritation, is felt - focus on this bodily sensation. Breath trough it and don’t let the mind run off with it. You will be surprised how soon the energy is released and your back to peace again.  Freedom 🤍

Processing feelings is an ongoing process. You are never “done” or finished. Having reached a calm state or having peace of mind mind doesn’t mean you don’t have emotions anymore. 

On the contrary , you will probably have more ! But you will be able to sense them early on, press the pause bottom and make room to let them be. Feel. Breath. Be there. And let them go. Emotions are energy in motion. When we run from our emotions or suppress them, the energy of that emotion gets stuck in our body and will cause emotional and physical pain. 

You are allowed to feel what ever you feel, You are allowed to be human! It doesn’t have to make sense and you do not have to understand it. Don’t judge, don’t run, don’t be afraid. Let yourself feel, heal and let go 🤍

The mind is always seeking. Always sending you the signal that there is something missing. This gives you an overal feeling of constant restlessness. And when it does find something it wants, it’s only content for a short period of time before it wants more and more and more. That’s Because the mind cannot and will never be satisfied. because if it would be satisfied it can stop seeking and when the seeking stops the mind stops existing so it will never allow you to be satisfied with what you have or who you are, for too long.

Don’t buy in to it anymore. Stop listening, stop reacting. 

Go to that place inside yourself where there is no need for anything. Where there is silence and peace. Where there is no need to seek, no need to find. The place where love and gratitude come so beautifully natural. Abide in that place and slowly but steady the seeking will stop. you will never search for happiness again because this place is pure happiness and overtime you will realize that none of the things your mind was telling you about yourself, are true. and that this place, this pure happiness, is who you are

If you have people around you who are there for you when you need it the most, who accept you exactly as you are, light and darkness and who look through the strong outside right into the vulnerability of your soul, you literally have everything you need. 

Today; leave the toughness behind. Be your true self. Be the one who dares to show herself, no matter the outcome. No matter what anybody else thinks. Cry if you need to, be angry if you feel like it, laugh when you want to. And most importantly, Ask for help. You never have to feel like you are alone again, those days are in the past. Ask for help, the right people will show up.

We are not suppose to walk this road on our own. We need each other. It’s the magic of the program🤍

The light will always shine brighter on the other side.. That's not a question. It's a God given promise. You just need to get through...

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What if, what if all is fundamentally well and it always has been? What if there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. What if, all that you think about yourself is not true?

When we enter recovery we are full of old ideas and pictures about how things where, how things are and how things are suppose to be. It’s a crazy mess inside the mind that constantly superimposes these images to you so that you can hold on to your idea about the world and about yourself, and experience some kind of control.  But I’m telling you this, not one of these images is correct. Not one of those old ideas is right. It’s all based on past fears and anxiety about the future. It’s created from your childhood onwards and even before your own childhood started we are burdened with the generational legacy’s of fears and trauma. Which is completely ok, it’s how the world works. The only thing we have to do, is be aware of it. Be aware and stop believing it so that we stop letting fear run our lives. Where there is fear there is no love, those two cannot co exist. 

As soon as you catch yourself saying things like how things should have been, how you should be different or how someone should behave; you know you are stuck in the dream of the mind. Things are as they are, people do what they do. YOU are what you are. And it’s absolutely more than enough. You are doing everything you can with everything you have and so is everyone else. Nothing is wrong with you and you are not a problem to be fixed. You are worthy, whole and a perfect complete human being. You are walking this path as strong as you can and you should be proud of that. As long as we see this in ourselves and in each other, love will rule the day and fear will vanish as a cloud before the sun 🤍

Freedom is the most important ingredient of love. You need to be able to give the other person freedom. space. to live, to love and to learn. and in order to give the other person space you need to be able to give yourself space. Space to learn, grow and flourish. To make mistakes, to be everything but perfect. No one comes in a perfect form and we are shaped by the battles we face and the lessons we learn. If you are able to give yourself the freedom to fall and stand back up without beating yourself up, without shaming and blaming. You will be able to give this to another person and that is where a shot at true love begins 🤍

I can’t do it - it’s this convincing statement that has everybody in its grip. I can’t do it. What do you mean “ I can’t do it “ ? How do you know? The body can do almost anything , it will not suddenly drop dead. It’s the mind that says those things and what has the mind to do with anything you do? It’s literally only a narorrator. A voice in the head that has something to say about everything - and everything it says is based on past fears, trauma and worries about the future that hasn’t even happen yet. It’s the mind that wants to keep you small. It has all these pre fixed ideas about how things should be and look but in reality all those ideas are there to keep you away from the miracle that you truly are and the miracles that will happen in your life if you would only let go of control. 

The truth is that only by doing something you will find out what you can or cant do and doing only exists in the here and now. You have an infinite wisdom and a tremendous amount of power in you, you just need to change source and stop living from the small egoic point of view where all these little plans and designs to protect yourself are created. In reality we are more in danger when we live dominated by the outside world and we are extremely powerful when we are being led by the force within. 

Let go of control, don’t let the mind tell you what to do. Breath, tap in to the spiritual center and let yourself be guided from the inside, instead of being pushed by the outside. 🤍🩵

The depth of who you are, is the only thing that will silence the hunger for perfection. For completion. For nothing what you will find on the outside will ever make you feel more whole than what you will find on the inside. Make life and its worldly things, attributes to your completion but do not count on it for your completion. 🤍

Sometimes in life the unthinkable happens.. the hurt can feel like it’s too much, the pain can feel incredibly overwhelming but you have to remember this; you were made for these times. God will never give you what you can’t handle and all that you are given is because one thing and one thing only and that is to find freedom. We can find complete freedom in the unthinkable and unbearable pain of life and nothing happens without reason so please listen to this; what ever happens, never give up. Pull through, feel the hurt. Yell, cry or shout if you need to but never give up. Fall seven times, stand back up eight. You are stronger than you think and wiser than you know. 

Hold on when life is tough on you, hold on to the people you love and ask for help if you need to. Don’t confuse strength with fighting. True Strength is when you give up the fight and you dare to feel, when you dare to be vulnerable and when you let people in. You are not alone and you need each other. Love will always conquer what ever pain is there, even if you don’t feel it in the midst of grief. Hold on. Hold on to love. Love will always win..🤍

Love is the most pure and sacred thing there is. If you taint it by mental concepts, expectations and demands it will lose its power. Love is able to heal in ways you can’t imagine, love is there to turn to when everything is gone.  Love is the only real thing, everything else is temporary. 

Whether it is with friends, a partner, family or children- choose love, over and over again. The Buddha has a teaching called “impermanence”. It means in times of trouble and turbulence between loved once, you imagine that that person is not going to be there for ever. That person may not even be there tomorrow. You simply don’t know but what you do know is that everything in this world is impermanent. Everything comes to an and eventually. So enjoy what is now, be grateful for what you have and love each other while you're here. Give someone else all the love you yourself ever desired. Be kind, be generous and be forgiving. I'll promise you, you get back what you give and remember: everyone does there best and everyone wants the same thing.

Love is always the answer.

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Honesty was the biggest obstacle in my recovery and with me are many others. I was so ashamed of my choices, my life and myself that exposing even the littlest of my secrets felt like I was dying on the inside. It’s the mind that makes you believe that you absolutely cannot share everything because if you do then….. well, then what?? What is it we are so afraid of. Are we afraid of rejection or abonnement ? Judgement or failure? Is it not that our whole step 4, the written inventory of our lives, is full of these pains while we were not being ourselves completely. We never showed the real us, the full story, and still we were abandoned and rejected. Can we conclude that it didn’t work to show a so called best version of ourselves? That it only brought us misery? Every secret will give the mind (addiction) power and will stand between you and what you really want in life. And it is not even the content of the lie that gives the mind power, it’s the lie itself that has the power over you. It creates a falls sense of control while in reality you are being controlled by the lie.

It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it and you will experience that over and over and over again until you find the strength to come out of hiding and be who you truly are by being honest and open. 

The big book of AA tells us that the only people who do not recover are those who cannot be completely honest. Let that not be one of you. Where ever you are on your road to recovery, believe this: 

Freedom is possible and honesty = freedom. Ask for help if you need to because recovery also means we are never alone again. 

It’s time to be yourself completely and utterly. The dark and the light, the good and the bad and everything in between 🤍🩵

It always hits you when you least expect it.. pain, loss, grief. 

I’ve lost a lot of people in my life but this is something I could have never imagined. You didn’t even take your first breath. I am the only one who experienced your presence. You were with me for quit a while. I felt you grow, I felt you move. No one will ever know the sound of your heart like I did. People can listen to it from the outside in but I felt it from the inside out. You were the closest to me that can ever be. And then you lost your life.. I felt my body losing the energy that you needed to grow. I didnt know what was happening.. I felt like I lost something. I felt an enormous amount of grief within me but I couldn’t tell what it was. I could only cry.. so loud and so painful. I lost you and I knew it.

I am happy that we got to meet, even for this short amount of time. Having you around for the last couple of months is worth the pain of losing you. You did so much for us. We wouldn’t have be were we are now if it wasn’t for you. We wouldn’t have the courage to do what we are doing now, if it wasn’t for you. Thank you little man.. you are very special to us. 

Your little hands, your little feet.. we could only imagine how your laugh or voice would have sound like. Thank you for changing our lives, you will forever have a special place in our hearts 🩵

There is this little light in you that is always there. Ever present , always shining. Sometimes it’s big, sometimes it’s tiny but it is always there. What if; when you are getting stuck in your head or strong emotions are almost overpowering  you but in that moment you succeed in turning to that little flame in yourself. You manage to keep seeing the light in yourself and hold on to it until the storm has passed. Imagine that.. imagine how powerful and safe you would feel. 

But even if you do not always manage to keep the light close during the storm; only to know and trust that that light is always there, is complete freedom. 

Keep reminding yourself to turn to the light. what ever is a happening, what ever you are going through. Good or bad. Pleasure or pain. Just keep reminding yourself to turn towards the light and one day you’ll realize there is no one to turn to the light anymore.. You are the light. 🤍

There is a foundation within yourself that is so solid, so strong - ever lasting. You spend your whole life searching for stability, approval and safety in other people, in relationships, in work or in substances. Not knowing that the only thing that can satisfy this need is coming home to your own true being. The only thing you are looking for is that one thing that can never be found outside yourself. It’s you in the deepest layer of who you are. Beyond conditioning, Beyond mental noise and beyond personhood. Dare to leave the mind and its search for happiness behind. Dare to be You, the real You🤍

The right choice is never the one you think it is. Because if we could mentally invision the divine path we have to walk, there would be no God. God is the direct opposite of the minds world. 

The mind will never be able to picture the right thing to do and that’s okay. Let it run wild, let it think itself in to madness. It will only give you the evidence you need that living from the minds point of view is miserable, lonely and hopeless. It’s a place where hope doesn’t exist and where everything is doomed to fail. 

The only thing you have to do to break free, is surrender in this moment and let go of the outcome. The right choice will come. You will be led in that way without effort, without pain. Suffering only arises when the mind tries to take control. Everything will happen as it’s suppose to happen. Let go, let God and you will learn through love instead of pain 🤍

There is no such thing as “clearing your mind“.  What we do with addiction / obsession etc is trying to clear the mind with the mind. Why would the mind want to empty itself ? It will then lose its power, so the mind would never allow you to “empty” it. The mind will make you go on and on and on with trying this and that and promises that somewhere (in the future, never now) it will work and you will feel better. 

If you only try a little harder. 

The mind will never be the place where you will liberate yourself. Liberation is found in connecting to the soul. It’s about letting the light over shadow the darkness. 

Feeding the light , starving the darkness. 

Then The darkness will disappear 🤍🩵

Everyone deals with their pain differently. Don’t judge yourself or others about how they deal with their pain. It’s the easiest thing in the world to judge. Whenever you yourself are in that position again you realize how hard it is to deal with the inner world and mostly we need something from the outside to tame it. It’s a process which you can’t just change. You can do the best you can by trying to stay open and leave your eyes wide open with everything you’re doing. Stay honest with yourself and share as much as possible. That’s how you damage control. Keeping your eyes wide open lets the light in as much as it can and it will make sure you make the best possible growth. We are not looking for spiritual perfection but rather spiritual progress,  we get that by going to any length for our recovery and sometimes that is only taking a tiny little step for the whole day but that’s more then enough. Be kind to yourself and the rest will follow 🤍🩵

Words and thoughts are very powerful. You create your whole world around words. If you use critical and unkind feelings to fuel your words, you create a world were those things rule the day. If you use kind and loving words, that’s the world you will live in. Your world is not dominated by the outside, it’s a reflection from the inside. 

Imagine yourself telling someone you love every morning ten things you love about that person. Or imagine telling that person 10 things you hate about him or her. Think about it ? How would you feel. What a difference that will make for both of you. It’s crazy if you stop to think about it and see how often we take everything we have for granted and use another person as a boxing ball just to release our own tention. Because if we look at were those words come from - it’s just energy moving around in your body that is converted in to words and you decide to put it in irritation or hate. You have a choice whether you put that energy in motion in to happiness, gratitude and love - or in hate, irritation and pride. 

Don’t fool yourself telling yourself you are entitled to be annoyed, resentful or unkind. Ask yourself how you want to be treated and be humble enough to give that away before you demand it from another person. Work on the feelings on the inside and you will change your whole world on the outside 🤍🩵

When life is tough on you; dont react. don’t fight, dont hide. Stay calm. Surrender to what is and give the light in you room to take over. Become so powerfully silent that the darkness has no other option than to leave you. You will feel an extreme peace coming over you, no matter what the situation, because you will realize in that moment that the fire inside you, burns brighter than the fire around you. The light will always be there for you to over power what ever darkness enters your life, it will always be there to turn to because that light; is you 🤍

Don’t only want the change. Don’t only long for the change. Be the change. 

wish for it, pray for it, work for it. 

Do it as long as you need to and you will see, one day you are exactly what you always wanted to be. Everything you are longing for, you already are. You are honest, strong and passionate. You are everything you are dreaming of. The only thing that’s between you and what you want to be, is behavioral patterns and conditioned mind. It’s nothing personal and it is not you.  

Little by little and sometimes with a big bang, you are changing and becoming that whitch you are meant to be. That which you are underneath the pain, trauma and conditioning. You are becoming you and it’s absolutely beautiful. Hold on, stay true to yourself and miracles will happen  🤍

Self seekingness is the number one offender for resentment. Resentment is the number one cause of spiritual disease. Choose to see the good in people and you will be free. 

Choose to see the good in people, no matter what. Every day you have the choice to let your day be colored by criticism and hurt or by positivity and insight. On a service level it may seem that people say or do certain things that hurt you or are against you, but if we look closer and deeper something else is going on. People don’t just say or do things. People are deeply hurt on the inside which makes them suffer and when people suffer it spills over and makes others suffer. The ego is always on the road to make someone else feel what it itself feels. It’s a cry for help. It doesn’t make it right and it definitely shouldn’t be accepted but looking deeply with concentration, calmness and insight will give you the opportunity to feel the hurt, to let it go and to forgive. To keep an open heart, to heal yourself and to give a way out to the other person. Because every time you manage to do this, you are not only freeing yourself from the bondage of self-  you also give the other person an opportunity to free him or herself. You offer a way out, a doorway to the deeper layer. The place where suffering doesn’t exist, where nothing has no be changed and where everything is exactly right as it is. 

So next time something hurtful happens; 

Let it strengthen you instead of weaken. 

Let it make you softer, instead of harden you. 

Let pain always be a tool to grow closer towards yourself. Let it be a guide to the deepest layer of who you are and you will see, you’ll grow stronger by the minute. Pain can be felt but it will not go any further then hurt in the heart. It will not turn in to thoughts or insecurities or hate. Things will no longer make you doubt yourself and you will be able to see things as they are instead of as they seem. 

and here is the best news.. it’s all an inside job. Nothing from the outside is needed. You will free yourself from the inside out instead of from the outside in what we always tried to do. This is true freedom

when we feel restless, discontented or just not at peace, we usually go seek a solution on the outside. We toss and we turn, we seek and seek. We ask ourselves "What's wrong? Whats going on? What am I feeling? What I'm a doing? What can I do about?" 

Our intentions are good, we want to help ourselves but in reality we go further and further away from ourselves. The questions are mind made and wil only cause more mind clutter which was the problem to begin with. We can not find our solution in the place where the problem is created. 

The only thing we have to do is press pause. Dare to be with ourselves. Sit.. breath.. feel what ever need to be felt. Empty yourself out and dismantle the engine for the minds restlessness. It's not scary and it will not be too much or too Overwhelming. On the contrary, it will bring you harmony and rest while running away from ourselves will cause all the things we are afraid of. You simply need to come home to yourself and peace will be upon you quicker than you can imagine.

press pause, feel, breath and let go 🤍

I often think about all the things I have tried over the years to get my life in order. To break through the cycle of self destruction. To feel better. To find freedom. it was an endless battle and it makes me extremely grateful for the peace and freedom I live in today. This deep satisfaction that comes from within and which makes nothing els needed anymore. The seeking stops, the wanting stops. Everything is exactly ok as it is. It’s complete acceptance.. wholeness from within.

Then I realize that the only difference between now and all those other times  that I tried to find liberation was that this time I claimed total defeat. Complete and utter defeat. Which brought the beautiful gift of surrender. And Surrender was the beginning of freedom. 

And that’s why we should never stop stop living step 1, 2 and 3. I am my own problem, nothing outside of me is. I am not my own solution, something greater than me is. And I can make that conscious decision, every day, to step in to that solution, let go and let God and be happy joyeus and free. Only to discover that I always was and have been my own light, i just needed to take a step back to give the light in me room to take over 🤍

How many times have you heard someone say this at meetings. Don’t tell yourself this is the answer. The big book is really clear about that first drink. We, ourselves, have no effective mental defense against the first drink. We will ALWAYS pick up that first drink if we don’t get relieved from the spiritual malady. If not picking up the first drink is the solution, total abstinence would be enough. But we only have the physical aspect of the disease covert then. The spiritual malady drives the mental obsession like an engine driving a car. As long as the spiritual malady is intact, the mental obsession will sooner of later gets its full grip on you and will lead you to that first drink again. 

The solution for our addiction is to awaken spiritually to get a relieve from the malady and make the obsession lose its driving forse. Relieved from the malady, We will be able to rest in God and do not need our minds to rescue us from the world. We will be able to live freely and happy and our wills will be aligned with gods will. and then, and then only, we will be able to not pick up that first drink. 

Today, I will realize that I have no control over my addiction what so ever but that I do have the choice to make conscious contact with that which prevents me from drinking, which is my higher power. 🤍

Who will you let your day run today? Is it the mind who will make you miserable and alone or will you live from the heart today and feel contented and connected. 

When we start recovery our mind rules our life and that means we live in a state of restlessness and discontentment. The mind always has to make movements to keep it self alive, that’s why It is in constant seeking mode. The mind will constantly give you one of the two messages; there is either something wrong or something missing. It are always these two signals and we project it on to people, places and things; Time and time again.  Same mind movements, different situations, Same outcome; misery!

The mind gives you a feeling of control and makes you think your strong, harsh and tough. It makes you think you are protecting yourself and that no one can hurt you. But in reality it’s the weakest position you can have. 

It’s so easy to focus on what’s missing, what’s wrong or what’s not good enough. The real strength is lying in living from the heart. Fearlessly and open. Let people in, give them what you yourself want to receive. Make them feel like they are worth something, make them feel seen and heard. 

Living from the heart, spirituality, has nothing to do with being nice but being authentically real. Be honest, tell the truth, be vulnerable. Be yourself. There is no point in faking it, you will only get back what you give, in one way or another. So give others what you need yourself and you will see how strong you become by being that which you yourself always needed. 🤍

My words often said “I know” , “I got this” or something else what sounded very stubborn and indicated that my way was the best way. but what I really meant was “help me”. I was lost and the only thing I knew was fake it till you make it and just say as loud as possible that I know what I’m doing in the hope that someday I might will. But I didn’t, and most days felt like I was drowning. Fighting an endless battle. 

When there come people into your life who see through those words and stubborn ways, who see past the behavior and who want to see the real you; that’s a tremendous gift. They shine a light at you that you didn’t know was there. They give you the opportunity to meet yourself at another level. And then, one day, you will be able to look beyond your own behavior and words  and you start to forgive yourself realizing that you are not your behavior. We are not our words. Words are just spoken thoughts and reality is far beyond thought. Reality is what is, and not what we “think” what is. When you grasp that, the day will come that you realize that the light they shine at you is your own light reflecting back at you🤍

You know what true love is? Accepting each other exactly as you are. Completely and fully, with everything there is. It’s amazing when someone looks at you and you just feel there is nothing they would change about you. Don’t ever settle for less than this. Love yourself enough to wait for that person and more importantly; become that person. 

Become that person who can accept another for everything he or she is. Become that person that loves herself enough that she doesn’t need to change another to make herself feel better. 

Become that person who, no matter what, sticks with herself. Through thick and thin. Stop judging yourself, stop wishing you were different. You are perfect as you are. Don’t ever leave yourself again, for nothing or no one. Put all of that energy you put in trying to change yourself, in accepting yourself. You are one of a kind and you should be proud of that. embrace everything you are, Good and bad. Darkness and light. 

You have the choice , every second of every day, to focus on your strengths or dwell on your weaknesses. Focus all of your energy not in fighting the old way of living, but in building the new 🤍

Enjoy everything that comes your way. like waves going up and down, you can surf the flow of life. 

Know that everything happens for a reason, there is a lesson in everyone and everything. If you approach every situation or relationship like this, the whole concept of abondenment and failure will disappear. Because you will understand that nothing is permanent and everything has its momentum and will change eventually. Don’t hold on to things that are suppose to leave you. Surrender. Life becomes so perfectly beautiful and so simple when you accept what comes and go’s. enjoy everything while it’s there. Live in the present moment and get curious and happy when it’s time to approach new things. Focus all of your energy, not on hanging on to the old, but on building the new 🤍

Ignorance is the first link in the in total 10 links that build up an illusion. Ignorance means pretending something not to be there while it is or the other way around- pretending something to be there while it really isn’t. In the twelve steps we learn that this is called our “self will”. We create the world we want to see and live in, in order to avoid reality. Ignorance is a really hard one because you are not able to see this link yourself and you need other people to mirror you to see your ignorance. Also, ignorance is not seen if the other 9 links are built upon it. You have to work backwards trough all of the links to end up by the first link; ignorance. Somewhere down the line you ignored reality and around that choice a whole illusion is built. 

The solution to this and simultaneously the hardest part of it - is listening to what other people have to say because all that they say that is not aligning with your built up

Illusion feels like an attack because for you they are threatening your world. It’s an illusory world but you don’t know that at that point. Surrendering to a higher power and listening to what other people have to say is the only thing that will help. This seems hopeless and a little bit depressing haha but in reality - it is not! It’s the best news you can get today. Because the believe that you can change yourself is the ignorant believe that made you run in circles your whole life. That stops today! And every day. if you make the decision every morning that you surrender to the solution of the program and let go of self will, your life will change in an instant.  and if you keep doing the work, the freedom will grow bigger and bigger and bigger, until freedom is your natural state 🤍🩵

The mind is always desiring something or resisting something. That means that when we are living from the minds point of view, there is always discontentment. You either want something or you resist something. Don’t confuse the resistent or clinging mode with the object of clinging or resisting. It has nothing to do with the person/place/thing the mind is resisting or clinging on, its just the movement the mind makes and it doesn’t matter what it chooses.  It mostly chooses resisting against that which is a treat for the delusion the mind wants to live in. And it wants to cling on that which feeds the delusion. 

It seems like a difficulte game to win, but it is not. The only thing we have to do, is stay here in the present moment. The ego does not survive in the here and now. Come back to the present moment by breathing consciously, in and out. Time and time again. Come back to your breathing. When we live in the present moment, there are no problems. Problems are always only in the past and in the future. Think about it, everything you worry about has either already happened or hasn’t happened yet. Here, there is nothing to worry about. and if we take good care of the present moment, we have nothing to worry about for the next moment 🤍

The mind keeps you imprisoned with promising you that the next thing will be the best thing. The next job, relationship or achievement will be the one that makes your life better.  But if you reflect back honestly about what all the obsessive achieving, getting and grabbing gave you, you Will come to the conclusion that it gave you a lot of pain and loneliness and at its best it gave you a temporary relieve from restlessness and discontentment but You always came back to that same point. the same emptiness and the same feeling of “not enough”. 

This is a clear indication that you are looking for liberation in the wrong place. You are looking for the solution within the mind that created the problem. 

There is a tremendous amount of freedom to gain if you dare to stop looking outside of yourself - go inward. Dive deep. Who are you? Who are you beyond the mind and the labels and conditioning. Who are you at this very moment? without your past and future, because the only one who is holding your past against you and your future as a means to happiness, is your mind. 

Freedom is found when you begin to understand that the mind is not who you are. You are not the thoughts in your head, you are the one hearing them. 🤍